PIP midterm Gone Very Wrong

Use against me - 2015

I had been to this festival.

Waiting at the bus stop to get to the station, this young trans pops up and say ha, did you come by your self?

"Yes"

I did to so glad I did had a great time going round talking to people.

---

I spoke to no one for three nightys apart from people who sold me stuff - NO ONE

A few weeks later I'm sitting in my usual splendid isolation at a club I go to (music is a special and complex thing in this)

And someone was sittin a few chairs down from me, so I thought you must speak othyerwise you are doomed for every so I did.

It turned out she was a trans woman and I relised later mad.

She was so much fun, so much energy, she knew people, she kew places to go, we walked for hours round london.
I was so happy there would be a happy ending after all.

Then about six weeks in, she left my bed, left her stuff and was uncontactable. The on face book I saw her at her firends smiling away.
I did get a responce to my 25th txt on the 26txt, it was horriable like a politition wishing you a happy christmas.

I of course knew this would happen so I did not buy any helium of a ballon I had, in case it was all to much.

This was going on during the period the shrink said I was not depressed

You can see how pip will twist this...

No mention of the triers, haveing to leave eary because of them but still crying on the train - not all girfriend related just the way it is.

No mention of sitting there with all these happy people and been so totally alone.

"why do I go dancing? It's better than suicide"

Yes a review, they said they would write half way though (cannot fully rember wording or timming) to see how it was going.

Dose not everyone get this??

"You had a letter that stated that you did not have any problems and you submitted this as evidence when you returned the form?"

Yes - but it was wrong.

PIP 5yeras
ESA support group

I cannot do the interview, it's all just so screwed up, I'm just so all screwed up (memory, comprehensin. etc

Memory example - Hipsters

I have had a few forum (not here) about them, conversation with the girlfriend and others about them.

Even spent sometime in hipster central in a park (a perfect day link to bbc perfect day (i have this musical thing), probably the only one I will ever have.

But for the last 5 days I've been trying to remember what they [hipsters] are called, only remembered today when I read it.

I can remmber bad/sad thinks quit well.

How can I do an interview in this state.

I need to delay it - how can this be done.

At the start of the year I was very dark place.

I sent pip a pic of a piece of wood I got from wicks so I could hang myself (concrete ceiling - I would have been dead in 2016 if my Woolworth's drill could have cut though it) tho I gave up on it as could not see how it would help.

Also sent them a pic of the rope I've got tied to my bed and hung over my door, in case I cannot be bothered to sort out a few people and solve the concrete ceiling in the main room (I want to web cast it)

But none of this is in my notes, pip will think i'm just taking the piss.

What can I say, what can I do?

Memory:

And its gone I cannot remember what the blokes with beards and checked shirts are called again!