new diagnosis. COC, awful assessment /want to complain to capita

Hello, I am new here, I am a bit confused about what I should be doing and I am now totally overwhelmed so I am sorry if this comes across very disjointed.

I put in a COC as I have been struggling for years and found out last year I have ADHD/Awaiting an Autism assessment, but originally claimed for M.E, Fibromyalgia , arthritis, GERD, Anxiety/Depression and a few other issues. So my COC was done due to my ADHD diagnosis, and having a deeper understanding of why I was struggling so extensively.

My GPs have dismissed most of my conditions throughout my life, and I have been left to "go it alone" but due to having issues with Fawning, disorganisation, task paralysis and exhaustion etc I have literally spent my whole life drowning and unable to advocate for myself. Having been put on ADHD medication has helped but I still struggle very badly with forms, admin and these kinds of things. Therefore I have never been in a position to push for specialist input. Even had this been availiable, I do not use public transport (like 4 times since the start of Covid through to today) I would have to be completely desperate...and even then may not be able to go.

Because of my limitations and inability to follow through and due to simply agreeing with things I don't agree with (fawning) and the inability to advocate for myself, not knowing how much or what information to give the GPs throughout the years, my medical records do not accurately show just how much I have been struggling or how much support I genuinely needed.

My GP has agreed if I write out things (I spoke to them and told them my preferred communication is writing because I process things slowly, therefore I have the response to the questions they ask after the appointments and cannot give the responseI should at the time, also I am not good speaking face to face with people, and get extremely anxious and have to mask all the time). But I do not know what to write to them, therefore I am stuck in updating that information.

I digress, I am sorry this will probably be long winded

1) I want to complain about the assessment I was subjected to by Capita.
This assessment was completely - I really don't have the words to describe it... it was, one of THE worst experiences of my entire life.
The assessor was monotone/flat, interrupted me, danced around all over the place with the questions, dismissed what I was saying. Did not allow me to request for it to be recorded - I was so distressed and triggered throughout the call that I was left with chest pain, paraesthesia in my head, face, arms, hands legs and feet for 5 days and am still experiencing some in my face as we speak and that was from the 27th August. I was literally on the defensive the whole way through, had no idea what order anything was in and was barely allowed to speak - never mind elaborate. She has written a while load of nonsense in the PA4, did not follow the guidelines as set out by the government. I have had assessments before but never have I ever experienced anything like that. I am traumatised to the point that even thinking about it ramps up my distress. This was literally nothing like any assessment I have had prior to this. There were no accommodations made for my slow processing or distress I was so distressed and confused I was unable to even ask for a break.


2) I haven't had my decision letter yet so I cannot do an MR at this stage. although my points remained the same (with her reducing one 4 point to 2 and giving me 2 points elsewhere, none of the descriptors give me more than 2 points now). I HAVE no choice but to fight this now because in order to get the support and help I need to improve and have any quality of life, I need to be able to access that support, and the only way I can access that support is to be able to get to it in the first place. As it stands with standard daily living my only award, this is not enough for me to afford taxis to get to the specialists I need. I am always dismissed because I have no specialist input, but I cannot access that input even if it were offered and even if I were able to take the multiple steps required to get it. - I literally do not have the capacity to do this.

I am barely able to manage this whole pip fiasco. But I am furious. frustrated and desperate now and that is driving me.


although I didnt get a chance to ask for the assessment to be recorded, is there a way I can easily transcript a recording that I took?

I am sorry if some of these questions seem irrelevant but I don't know where to begins with all this. I am overwhelmed with everything that I am trying to deal with and have no help or support.

thank you