Feeling like I'm 'everyone's hate target' again

I used to work in (wait for it) the Jobcentre until 15 years ago, when I was pensioned off after repeated bouts of depression-realted illness. My doctor actually signed one medical certificate 'manic depression' so I've been 'exempt' thus far from reassessement.

For a period of time now I've been hearing and reading the rumblings about transferring from IB to some other benefit, but I've got the feeling that a lot of cases are going to be treated as 'statistical fodder' since the goalposts have been shifted big-time.

I've tried to make attempts to rebuild my life, but with the nagging awareness that - no matter what any Disability Discrimination Act says - my CV would be 'in the bin' without much consideration from many employers.

No matter what anyone says, or any 'see me' awareness campaign, the stigma of mental illness itself can have an additional detrimental effect which itself is debilitating.

I've found myself feeling that I'm on 'event horizon' staring into some horrendous black hole, feeling like my whole world is about to begin collapsing again. I remember feeling like 'everyone's favourite hate figure' when I used to go back-to-work in the past, and this obviously contributed to the deterioration in my health.

I've also been receiving DLA for a number of years, with mental health problems being accompanied by various physical ailments through the years.

In summary, it seems to me that problems that have been dogging me for the last 20 years or could now be re-assessed as not mattering in a 10 minute interview (followed by a couple of civil servants having a laugh over my case at tea-break).

Or am I just being paranoid?

Or am I just being paranoid?

Fwiw, I'd substitute that with "rational" and "objective".

No, you are just caught up by a stupid system. Your thoughts are reasoned and well set out. Do look after yourself so you do not become more ill.