Pop assessment

Im disabled-arthritus-spondylosis-degenerative disease, migraines, hiatus hernia, fibromyalgia & agoraphobia-severe mental health. Im abs dreading it, ive no one, no support, just me! Have suicidal tendencies daily! Im sick of my life. Ive no one go assessment with! Im doomed! Feel deflated & think ive lost it now! There lot things I’ve not been doing. Been trying get help but I get slapped in face. Don’t no how much more I can take, due my esa assessment again, I feel should be in support group but I’m not, i desp need someone help me through it all !